| COMMENTS FROM JOANIE'S CORNER........... |
| copyright 2001 Joan M. Lewis |
| Anybody know a good shrink???? I think I'm losing it!! The kids' dad got two weeks off of work, and wanted some time with the kids. So they're staying with their dad for a couple of weeks. I've been calling every day since they left last Saturday, and I went up there to see them tonight. I know that I'm supposed to feel grateful that the kids have a dad who still wants to be involved in their lives. I know that a lot of dads aren't like that. I know that in some ways this is a good thing and I should be grateful. BUT I'M JUST NOT!!!!!! I want them home. I've spent the last (almost) 10 years making sure they were bathed, fed, and wearing clean underware, and explaining to them over and over again why they need to brush their teeth. They like to play ball and do things with Dad, but when they're sick, hurt or tired, they want Mom. There have been a couple of times I've called and Jeanna didn't want to let me off of the phone. It feels awful when you know one of your kids wants or needs you there and you're not there. Jered is at an age where he wants to do things with the guys. He had a pretty good time tonight playing baseball with Jim. I played with them for a little while too. Just for the record, you can't believe all that stuff that Jim says about getting old. You should have seen him hit and run! I needed Jim's help in the outfield just to keep up with my 9 year old. God, can that kid smack a ball! I also played with the girls on this jungle gym at the park. That was wearing but enjoyable. So, what's the problem? Well, first of all, they're not here. I miss them. I didn't want to leave them there. They were enjoying their time with dad and I wanted them to be ready to come home. They should be enjoying it. Jered is right. They don't get enough time with their dad. Right now he's off work and has all kinds of time to spend with them. When they're with me, they have to go to the sitter during the day while I'm at work. Then we get home in the evening, they get supper, get their baths, and get ready for bed. I have too many other things to do. I thought I was just trying to make a decent home for my kids. Their dad's place looks worse than my brother's barn after the tornado, and they're having a great time!! Maybe I should wait a couple of days before I call again. Maybe they feel like I'm intruding on their time with their dad. Maybe I need to try to find a little more time to spend with them somehow when they are here. I don't know. Like I told Jim, I feel like I'm losing my kids. 7/3/2001 |